Dearest Mother

I love her so much.
On the 29th this January I accidentally almost transferred $2000 to a stranger's account when I was suppose to transfer it to my mum's account. I was so angry and devastated. I was thinking, how could I? I missed out the last number of the bank account so luckily the account doesn't actually exist, thank god!! (and is now back in my account again)

Anyway, I have these clumsy moments a lot, loosing things, breaking things, ruining things... etc. And it's always my mum I run to first. She doesn't get angry at me at all. She is so understanding it's surreal. How could anyone in this world be so understanding of my feelings other than myself? Well she does. Unlike many mothers, or parents out there, she didn't give me a full lecture telling me off for not checking the back account number more carefully before I sent it. She didn't question me. She didn't frown or get angry or sad right in my face.

She teaches me to 'soldier' on

Justin & Selena's Breakup (New Song)

It's so overly talked about but I can't help but want to put in a few words myself.

Some people hate the pairing, some people miss it. (edit: I saw the 2012 Victoria's Secret Show, Justin was rumoured with model Barbara Palvin and rumors are rumors. But I saw something on that show, how he was so obviously going crazy over all the supermodels, now who wouldn't, they're gorgeous, millions of men swoon over them, but at least Bruno Mars who was also on the show -and by the way has no girlfriend- acted classy about it... just something about the way Justin looked at them that I didn't like, and I'm sure his girlfriend at the time didn't like it either...but anyway...) I just feel sorry for both of them, it's a sad thing to part ways, I've never gone through it before but it feels like I can relate to it somehow... My fear of a relationship, is my fear of separation.

Anyway, this is Justin's new song. I'm not a Belieber but there are some of his songs I do like. This new song of his is really simple, I don't think his voice is amazing in this but the feelings he exudes in the recording touches my heart. It's so sad. The melody is very pretty.

Back to Black (& DT)

I forgot to give an update about my hair. As the title of this post states, it's 'back to black'

I'm starting to have a huge interest in high fashion and supermodels. And I've noticed all the Asian models have black hair which makes me really want to appreciate my natural colour. I don't want to follow the Korean and Japanese hair trends, I'm now following people like Liu Wen, Su Hei and Shu Pei. It's more sophisticated and classy. 

I finally watched Les Miserables, I didn't expect the whole movie to be in 'songs' and so it got a bit tiring listening to the songs to understand the plot but I still loved it! I also didn't expect Anne Hathaway to die so soon in the movie but the movie actually didn't feel that long unlike what my friend thinks (she thought it was SO long). Anyway, the movie made me think of Daily Thinker #10.

I've been thinking about my future a lot these past few days (also been living the moment though, it being Australia Day yesterday with awesome fireworks and beautiful view, also catching up with all my friends which I haven't seen for 2 months). And during Les Miserables, I've realised that I'm really scared to chase my dreams. Scared to lose everything that I already have. If I started from rock bottom, I would have nothing to lose, that's probably why so many famous and successful people used to have nothing at all. 

Secret Messages by Taylor Swift

Jessica Zaleski attempts to decode Taylor's Swift's Red and figure out who each song is about.
I think it's really amazing. Makes all the songs that much deeper with all the evidence she brings forth.

"I have spent hours taking apart every word of these songs so you know which exes she is bashing (or which current relationship she’s celebrating). Obviously there are clues in her songs, and Taylor always gives clues in her album booklet by capitalizing letters in the album’s lyrics…and things aren’t looking good for Jake Gyllenhaal."

The part Jessica says that Taylor always gives clues in her album booklet by capitalising letters in album lyrics is an astounding uncovering. Examples are:
22 - The hidden message is 'Ashley Dianna Claire Selena'. Talking about friends such as Selena Gomez and Dianna Agron.

Holiday Shopping Paradise {pt1}

So during Nov 2012 until Jan 2013, I was overseas. I loved it there, but I was glad to be home because it was just a little but too long staying in Guangzhou with no friends around. However, the shopping was really good, awesome actually! Places I went to were Seoul (Korea), Hong Kong and Guangzhou (China). When I am on holiday I am really picky with what I buy, either it has to be a really really good bargain or it has to be something I really really love, because I have previous experience with luggages, taking all my shopping back to Perth with me, and it was a nightmare. So here are photos of what I bought, part 1 though.... because the rest my dad had to bring home since it didn't fit in my mum's, little brothers or my luggage. Yes, that's how crazy I went. Crazy as in over 10 pairs of shoes crazy. All the prices are converted into AUD.

From these 4 photos:

spectacles $27

spiky bracelet $4

blue earings $0 (gift)

black&gold necklace (A)

white Chanel bracelet $3

black Chanel bracelet $3

heart-shaped watch necklace $0 (gift)

black leaves necklace $0 (gift)

aviator sunglasses $10

black watch $4

white watch $4

brown watch $4

brown wrist band $0.30

silver wrist band $0.30

black&gold Eiffel tower earings (B)

Swarovski gold earings $7.50

Union Jack Cross earings $0 (gift)

pink bracelet (C)

pearl earings $6

black bracelet (D)

statement black flower necklace $4

A+B+C+D = 17

Note: it is kind of weird that the statement necklace costed only $4 whilst the pearl earings costed $6 and the Swarovski gold earings $7.50 but the earings are actually really good quality whilst the necklace is not so much. 

Looks Aren't Everything. Believe me, I'm a model - Cameron Russel

I found this REALLY interesting and kind of eye-opening. Like I knew the truth deep down but when she actually said it out and I heard them, and digested them, it really strengthens the truth, the truth about IMAGE in LIFE. Wish it didn't cut off in the end because I wanted to listen to more.

January 2013: Damsel in this Dress

I have released a new blog named Infatuations and the new issue is out! Names Damsel in this Dress, the issue talks about how to find the perfect evening dress. Please check it out by clicking on the link below:

January 2013: Damsel in this Dress

Brother's Birthday! & DT: Colourblind

For some reason this one did not post on the day I scheduled it to which was 7th December 2012. So here it is.

Daily Thinker #9

I think my older brother gets his truly 'wise'ness from my Dad. They are both the type that don't do amazing at school with their grades but are unspeakably intelligent people in society. My brother doesn't believe in luck, in destiny, in fate, in whatever thing that explains things externally and not with the 'self', because he only believes in himself. He plays by his own rules. He is an inspirational person in my life, makes me want to succeed in life, to learn more so I could be more amazing like him. He has this type of charisma that's not typical at all, I don't think you would even call it charisma, it's just this spark in him with the conversations he makes, words he says really open people's minds up. Though sometimes he is really ridiculously funny and immature (being the Joker of our family) and is capable of turning my brain into goop, most of the time he really motivates me and puts things in perspective. Without him I would be a really stupid and daft girl, I just know it. He has really influenced me. We play-fight and curse each other but everything is very light-hearted, I love this type of hate relationship, when you are not here I miss the the taunts and the bruises.

Right now you are not in China whilst I am, I think you are in Vietnam? Or Thailand? Oh the Thailand jokes I taunt you with. Well right now 'now' we're all still at home in Perth but when this post is scheduled to post on your birthday, I bet you I would be really missing you and little brother too. And when I finally see you again, which I will at the end of the month, the first thing I will want to do it strangle you, knee you in the ribs, punch you in the head and squash your perfect looking nose that I happened to not inherit.  



Happy birthday older brother!

I will definitely email this to him, I hate writing such deep words directly at someone but they do not hear them. I will have to edit a bit of it since I do not want him to know about the existence of this blog in which he may call 'stupid'. But I want him to know how much I want to squish that nose of his. Oh brother.