Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Not Pure Imagination

'Appearances vs. Reality' is actually a lot harder to grasp. 
People put up fronts that we fall into...
Thinking what you see with your eyes must be real.
Wrong. So very wrong.

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by Dapicture

This is a follow up to the last post I have made about appearances. Let me explain the context behind the previous post... so I have two friends, boy and girl, I'm not close to the girl and only this year have I gotten really close to the boy, but they come off as both really kind, friendly people. And the boy let's me know they had a 'fall-out'. But they act so normal and happy/friendly around each other all the time. False. So I get scared at how crazy the behind-the-scenes can be, and I kind of withdraw a little bit from these two people. But the boy is just so nice and friendly to me, the guy that has blown me away by how intelligent and funny he is. And it really puzzles me to know that two perfectly nice people could not get along. 

And subconsciously I think about it, in a way that it appears in my dreams the following night. My own answer to the puzzle: The two had a thing. The girl and her boyfriend's best friend, that is the relationship they share. What a story, something you see in movies. But I wake up and I shake the dream off, the boy is such an amazing friend to his best friend, he would never do anything like this.

But I guess I had my instincts. Today I find out that my prediction was correct. They didn't exactly have a thing, but the girl was supposedly crossing lines and getting too close, and I could sense he liked her too. I hear all this from the boy's mouth so I don't know how credible the story can be, I mean, of course you'll make the other person sound like the wrong, horrible one and yourself the innocent all goody-goody one.

Monday, 14 July 2014


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by kristianna11

  • Mood:  Uneasy
  • Listening to: All Too Well - Taylor Swift
A lot of the time, things are not as they appear. This is the scary thing about the world we live in. People hide things about themselves, some even go and change how they appear for others. What we see may not be the entire truth, or may not have any truth in it at all. That's why I appreciate raw people so much. Those who act genuine, who are real. Whose eyes smile in honest joy. I strive to be that. To not fear judgment or fear being taken advantage of, to be real.

And I guess it's this part of life, this part about people, that reminds me that I should be careful about trusting and believing people. To be careful about commitment. Committing to a fake person, to a person who doesn't turn out to be the person you made them out to be. Don't fear judgment or of being taken advantage of, but be careful.

I enjoy life without a partner. Don't need to worry who you're trusting your heart to. Don't need to worry that he will change into someone you can no longer relate to or love. As we grow older and older, the innocence and naivety fades, and we end up watching our every step. Our circle of friends grow smaller and smaller as we can trust only the closest.

Over-complicated people are scary... beauty and happiness is in the simplistic.

We are all animals, living in a jungle. Only difference is there aren't towering trees, but towering buildings.     Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...

Saturday, 12 July 2014

Life Thus Far...

Been on holiday and stayed away from blogging. For that I apologise. Being bored, I didn't feel blogging was the remedy. But I still don't want to overlook the purpose of this, to document my progression through life.

In these holidays, I have had to make a lot of decisions. Most of which was because I created the need as a result of utter boredom. One major decision was to find a new job, in which I am so happy to share that I got after an extensive application progress. I am going to be working at a bank; getting that experience. Oh and that money of course, for travelling!

Hopefully I will be able to cope with working part-time. I don't see why I wouldn't be able since I did for my first year of Uni, and here I am only doing 3 units. Only difference I guess is this is part-time and that was casual. Other things that have changed in my life include taking up a new sport: Thai Boxing/ Muay Thai. I have a personal trainer for unlimited time, paying only $150, it's so good! How, you may ask? Well he's my older brother. Even better, at the convenience of my own home. Completely sore right now just from a long session 2 days ago.

I love change. It's slightly scary, worried I may not be able to handle it, especially since I realised I didn't do too well in one of my units for last sem (I got a credit, and some may say, well that's better than what I would wish for, I only want a pass... sorry but I'm one of those high-achievers). This credit overshadowed my 2 high distinctions. I shouldn't let it affect me so much but still trying to get past that flaw in me. These silly insignificant things, still affecting me after 24 hrs when it shouldn't.