I fear I have been brought up by fairy-tales and am still a daydreaming child. I know no-one is perfect in this world but I have this subconscious pursuit of perfection within myself which I blame the princesses in which I grew up with. I know I am not perfect and no-one is but it doesn't stop me from pursuing close to perfection, to be the best. It can be seen as the seed of arrogance but I am anything but arrogant. I fear people not liking me and aim to be loved by everyone but this is not possible. My older brother says that in order to get somewhere in the corporate ladder, there will be people who don't like you whether it be from jealousy. I can't stand the idea of being disliked, I care too much for my own good, I admit it. My second flaw, I fear disappointment too much and hence lack confidence. Fear of being arrogant and not being liked means I lack confidence but also the fear of disappointment in myself and to those around me makes me lack confidence as well. I try hard but I always think of the worse scenario so it will catch me if I fall. Fear of falling? I fear too much. I need to learn how to stop this. Stop fearing, stop caring... stop trying to be perfect.
Three exams down and two more to go. I fear that I will not achieve the score I want. This is one of the big testament I will face. Happiness.. my last post... I need to learn to be more easily satisfied. Easier said than done. I need to tell myself to stop caring about my final score, who am I trying to please?
"In other words, not only live with them but embrace our imperfections.
Seek the lessons they teach us instead of trying to kill them off. Release the stress of overdoing and overworking that results from the quest for perfection.
After all, when we grasp the fact that our human journey is really about learning and experiencing rather than condeming ourselves to repetitive, unsuccessful attempts at clearing the bar of perfection, we can actually start to expand our horizons.
Freely learn new things. Experience renewal. Even - once again - be silly, childlike and have some real fun."
Enough exploration of my psychology.
Time for some fashion therapy. Love Bonito is an online shopping website I have newly found which I haven't yet bought from but the products there looks really nice I know I am sure to buy something one day. It's a Singaporean business and they ship internationally! Here are some of my faves!
Hitchhiker Convertible Bag Rodeo Romper only S$29.00 Perfect for uni days, only S$39.00 I don't have anything like this, must add! Versace for H&M is exciting! Dontatella Versace's new collection for H&M is set to hit stores November 19. Below are some of the key looks from the Versace for H&M collection.
Leather dress, $299, bracelet, $29.95, and suede boots, $149
"Gold studs on black leather is one of the most iconic Versace signatures, and this dress for H&M is becoming an icon in itself." —Donatella Versace
Silk dress, $149, and necklace, $39.95.
"I love this dress because it shows how glamour can be for day, not just night. I love how the simple details have such a big effect, like the slashes in the sleeves and the gold buttons on the patent straps." —Donatella Versace
Silk dress, $149, and leggings, $29.95.
"We had so much fun designing the print pieces for the collection, which can be worn individually or mixed and matched as wild as you dare" —Donatella Versace
Metallic dress, $249.
"The use of metal mesh is one of the true icons of Versace... It was amazing to me how metal mesh had become so soft, and so alluring." —Donatella Versace
Silk dress, $149, and suede boots, $149.
"The corset detailing of this dress is incredible. It is immediately recognizable as Versace, yet it's H&M. I love how the hardness of the corset detailing contrasts with the softness of the baby-doll draping." —Donatella Versace
My thoughts? I love the leather dress and the silk dress in the last image however I am not a fan of the print dress. "as wild as you dare" Way too wild for my liking. It's not something you can just wear out. Excited to finish up with my two other exams so I can get out of this uniform and dress up again, to be able to leave this house and walk the streets in style! Until then, will continue trying to overcome my fear of... things and continuing to do my best. Whatever happens, I will learn to accept!